I, like many people I’m sure, went straight from secondary school, to A-Levels, to university, to full-time employment, without a break to stop and evaluate what I want to do, and how I will do it. So, as I approach my final weeks at a job I’ve had for the last four years, I am now entering unknown territory. For the first time in my life I might not be doing anything, like at all, which is a scary thought. However, what’s more scary is that I’ve been contempt for the last couple of years staying at a job I have no desire for. I’ve procrastinated for far too long, and I’ve finally taken action.
A full-time job with little-to-no responsibility and a steady pay cheque is a procrastinator’s worst nightmare. I’ve always been a procrastinator; I procrastinated throughout the entirety of school years, and after my results I promised myself I would change, only to procrastinate just as much throughout my A-Levels (although I somehow did better – no lesson learned there). This continued throughout my degree as well, to a certain extent, and overall I graduated with a 2:1 in music, and a 1st in procrastinating.
However, the things I procrastinated whilst at school or university all had deadlines, and when these deadlines approached like a steam train and I realised I had wasted two weeks watching three TV shows on Netflix, the fear would kick in and I would do the work. This worked for me very well at school and university, as I still achieved good results. Well, good enough that they didn’t alter my work routine. But what happens to a procrastinator when there are no deadlines? Well, if you’re like me, you stall. I have learnt the hard way that there is no deadline for pursing a new career or a passion; I have to do that myself.
When I graduated I struggled to find a job that related to my degree, so I opted to continue working as a waiter. My initial plan was to work there temporarily, just until the new year so I could save up some money, whilst simultaneously looking for another job. New year came and went, nothing changed. Then a whole year had past and I was certain I would leave, adamant even, but then I was offered the role of supervisor and I accepted. That was six months ago, and last week I finally ignored and said no to the fear of leaving a steady job for the unknown and handed in my notice.
I can honestly say I do not know what I’m going to do next, but it’s nice to know in a way that it can be anything, and as a procrastinator, having no job is definitely the motivation I need to find a new one.
P.S. Firstly, the image at the top is known as a ‘Life Calendar’. It’s something I came across whilst watching a TED video on procrastination whilst simultaneously procrastinating (no seriously), and essentially every box is a week in the life of a 90-year old. My initial reaction was “Surely that can’t be correct? That can’t be 90 years worth”, but it is (trust me, I counted). But that wasn’t even the scariest bit, as a lot of the boxes have been shaded in already. This image really put it into perspective for me, and if anyone is like me and struggles with procrastination I would definitely recommend watching it. It’s titled: ‘Inside the Mind of a Master Procrastinator’.
And secondly, I would like to apologise to each and everyone I work with who is finding out about me leaving this way. I didn’t know how to tell you guys; it’s honestly one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. In the past, if I ever thought about leaving, just thinking about you guys made it incredibly hard for me to leave, and without you there I would have left a LONG time ago, trust me. But I soon came to realise that even if I did leave that I would still see you guys all the time, which gave me the confidence to pursue something different. I hope you can understand. (Plus, I’m not getting any younger!)
If I was ever having a bad day, you guys made it better. You made work fun and you made me laugh every day. I just hope I returned the favour. Working with you was by far the best part of my time here, and I really do appreciate just how lucky I’ve been to not only work with you, but have you as friends. I know there’s still a few weeks to go, and I know this isn’t the end, but thank you for everything, truly. You guys are the best!